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Wednesday, 12 March 2003: Cuyahoga Valley National Park
  
 "Thermometer this morning, about 7 A.M., 2 degrees, and the same yesterday. This  month has been windy and cold, a succession of snows...the spring birds all driven off."  
                                                                   --Journals of Henry David Thoreau, March 13, 1857  
 
      Paul and I arrived at Gillette House in the National Park on Sunday afternoon after the 13 hour drive from Massachusetts
to Ohio. So the past two days, I've been unpacking, meeting up again with people that I met here  a year ago. It was this cold a year ago, but not so much snow. The whole northeastern quarter of the U.S. seems to have had more cold and snow this
year than in a long time. In Massachusetts, the day before we left, we got whacked with another 8 inches or so (after a 27
incher on Presidents' Day.) I've been lining up, marking, and reading Thoreau's journals for early March, and in nearly all of
them, March seemed more springlike. But this morning, I came across the 1857 spring, which sounds a lot more like the 2003 spring.  
      A creek runs in front of Gillette house, just the other side of the road we're on, and a bedroom and living room window 
face it. This morning around sunrise, we opened the curtains and had coffee just looking at all that white with gray sticky trees 
and underbrush and rising high up on the hill behind them, pines so dark they look more black than green. Paul said, "You may need to lean this way to see it, but there is a red bird there. It has to be a Cardinal, doesn't it?" I did lean, and it was a
Cardinal, but the teeny beeniest one I have ever seen, and a male at that." We were far from it, but even so, it was much
smaller than usual, as though you could take the smallest brilliant splash of red and sit it on one of the youngest sapling twigs. All that white and brown and one fleck of brilliant red. 
       (And now I think of my American Lit professor Bill Hamilton in 1971 explaining that to the Transcendentalists (like
Thoreau), every experience represents a supernatural fact, and I think Thoreau would do something with that Cardinal.)  
      Yesterday morning, Paul and I took a long walk up the hillllll and I do mean hill)  to the Center and beyond, and then later
in the day, drove to Peninsula and checked out the library, which is so good. I need to find out what the difference is in funding libraries in Ohio and Massachusetts because libraries seems soooo much better off in Ohio. I recall the Lynn librarian told me
she had to write grants for all their money except the employees, who are paid by the city. 
      During meals and walks, Paul talks a lot about the "situation in Iraq," which my emails are full of too. News comes in on theWomen Poets List Serv about a lot of people arrested just for saying they are against the war. Alice Walker and Maxine Hong Kingston and 23 other women  writers were arrested for standing in front of the White House in protest. One man in a small town near Albany was arrested for wearing a t-shirt that said, "Peace on Earth." I guess you can only wear that in December.  
      Yesterday afternoon, I met with two groups of kids who are at the Cuyahoga Valley Environmental Education Center
(CVEEC) from Beachwood. We wrote poems about place. I told them that when you first come to a place for the first time (or a second time anew, as many of them are doing also) you experience it strongly, and it's a good time to get that experience down. I read my poem, "Ohio Rag" and they read aloud some poems I had from Dayton school kids about Ohio, and then we tried to write poems about this place-- the Cuyahoga Valley in general or the CVEEC or specific sites. In fact, most wrote
about the wilderness or nature experience itself, it being so different from Beachwood, where they've just come from. (When I think of Beachwood as a place, I think of the Beachwood Mall, and not being a shopper, that's not a pleasant association. I need to remember to tell them about a wonderful poet who lives there, Bonnie Jacobson.)  
      Here are some of my favorite lines that they wrote:  
 
 The wind whispers to me like my friend tells me a secret. --Shali 
 
 Way out here, animals have homes,/out there, buildings cover them. --Doni  
 
 Crooked like an old granny's back/Hilly like waves of an ocean,/In the middle of nowhere but in a certain place.... --Jacqueline 
 
 Hills, water, snow, the gray trail that is dwarfed by everything else.--Jon 
 
 The smell of pines wraps you like a blanket.--Yuhjung Han 
 
 Fox scat/deer track/aroma of fresh green pine trees. -- Mandi 
 
 [Nature's] water are her tears she cries because of how little of her there is in the world.--Courtney 
 
 Snow as hard and crunchy, but cold/ Ice as slippery, hard as gold.--Niara 
   
   
   
 
 Saturday, March 15, 2003 , 6:00 a.m. 
 
 “It is fine clear weather and a strong northwest wind. What a change since yesterday!” 
                                     —Journals of Henry David Thoreau, March 16, 1859 
 
      The weather this week has been so various. When I walked out Thursday morning, a day predicted to have a high of 46, it felt relatively warm, so the reports on a few school closings in Cleveland seemed curious, but within an hour or two, it was
freeeeeeezing again, and it rained a freezing cold rain all day. On schedule for the day was “Creative Hike,” and our group of
students was divided. Many had layered for it, wanted to hike, so Colleen took off with them and gave them the full experience. They came back a full hour later, layered with mud and accounts of sightings and very exciting adventures
(“&thenhepushedme&Ipushedhim&wesawscatofalotofdifferentanimals&otherstuff.”)  
      Meanwhile, I stayed back with three people who preferred not to hike. These three were students who had written the best poems or done the best art, so it was fun to be with them. And I remember that given the choice in school, I always opted to stay in the classroom rather than go to the playground. Not because I didn’t like going outside. I could spend hours in the woods at Sippo Lake. I hated the meanness of the playground. (I’ve been thinking a lot lately, even before I came here, about the unsupervised times at school and how very cruel kids could be. Our long bus ride was the worst. I’ve been writing a poem about it for a few weeks now.) The four of us worked on poetry broadsides.  
       Later in the afternoon working with Megan, I shared my journal with the group, asked them to make any entry, perhaps beginning with a quote maybe one of these quotes by their classmates, and to take into account what was going on here and beyond us, either back at home in the city or in the larger world. Here is what Sarah wrote: 
 
 “The only thing to fear is fear itself.” (Winston Churchill) 
      It seems that there is so much more to fear than fear right now. Terrorist attacks become more likely every day,
and our country is considering going to war with Iraq. At the CVEEC, you forget all that. The only thing to concentrate on is nature,and it seems as if  nature is concentrating on you. Nature appeals to all five senses, and the second you get there, you fall into balance. 

      When I returned home, Paul said that I had missed two wild turkeys just after I left that morning, right out on the front lawn. I said I didn’t know if I would recognize a wild turkey as such, that I had seen pheasant but wild turkey—how did he know? (On and off, Paul has been acting the part of Louis Bromfield’s manager, “Eeeww, nature!”) He said, “Oh, you’d
know. It had that red neck!” I believe he means “wattle.” Paul said the birds were walking leisurely across the snowy lawn till
they spotted him, frozen at the window, eyeing them, and they took off.  
      I am just amazed by the animals I am surrounded by, that I live with here. Tuesday, leaving the Center, I passed seven deer grazing on the lawn outside Lipscomb Dining Hall.Maybe some day if the deer overrun the cities totally I will get used to how beautiful they are, but I know I never did the summer we lived in Santa Cruz and they used to hang out everywhere, in the  parking lots, on the lawns, in the fields. 
      Friday morning the weather took a sudden change and the trees were painted in ice. The whole landscape glistened. I
suddenly realized that all those dangling sparkle lights that have become so popular at Christmas are trying to duplicate this
natural phenomena, and the electric version is a poor substitute. (Lord, I sound like Thoreau). I had to get on I-77 to do some photocopying, and from afar, the woods looked like a field of hoarfrost, a solid made up of thousands of individual strokes of
ice, sparkly white. The temperature was rising, and as I drove into the Center at 10 a.m., I pulled up to the small trees in the
parking lot. The ice on them was just beginning to melt, and it reflected like crystal. One of the trees, more brown perhaps than the rest, actually looked studded with gold drops. By noon, the air was so warm that I walked about without a coat, but the ice sparkled for a long time after. 
      The snow is melted in a lot of places, but here at the house, where there are so much tree, I am still backed by a lot of
snow. It reminds me of another passage I read in Thoreau, where he talks about sitting on a bare patch of ground dotted by
mounds of snow on a day so warm he has his coat off. Lu has emailed me from her cabin in Michigan that that was how it
was there today, that she sat on her back porch, jacket on but unzipped. (She was nearly delirious with the joy of it.) More snow should melt today, which is predicted to be the warmest so far.  Mom and Dad are visiting for the day, and I am leaving now to drive out to meet them at the rest area so they can then follow me here back to Gillette House.
 
 
 

Sunday, 16 March 2003, Noon
 
“Last night I came home through as incessant heavy rain as I have been out in for many years…You require
india-rubber boots then. But to-day I see the children playing at hop-scotch on those very sidewalks…so rapid are the
changes of weather with us, and so porous our soil.”
                             Journals of Henry David Thoreau, March 16, 1859
 
          My mother and father did come yesterday, relieved, I think that Gillette House is so nice. I am sure Mom imagined me
living in a log cabin with no heat and no furniture. It is funny how my parents have not aged as theirs did, still think of us in some ways as children. I discussed this with Dad yesterday as I paid for his lunch. He really felt as the father, he should pay. I
pointed out that when Grandpa Kendig was his age, Dad took care of him, that he and Mom have done so much for their four children (ages 45-52) that it is our turn to do stuff for them. I think my grandparents had life so very very very hard and the
world had changed so much that they needed the care. My parents’ lives held those same difficulties, but they were younger,
and then managed to work through it and achieve a level of comfort that I sometimes refused. My brother feels we hurt Dad’s
sense of himself when we take over things, so I try to be careful and remind him what he did for his own father. He seems to
appreciate those memories, which, I after all, have so many more of than my younger siblings.
            Anyhow, we drove around the park, walked at Lock 29 and in the town of Peninsula. It was a glorious, glorious day,
about 50 degrees, streaming sun, millions of families biking, little single files of bikes with kids in helmets, Dads, and Moms,
dogs. We met a collie and a sheltie, a Cockashit  (another cocker mix) and one of mixed heritage that clearly had some
Dachshund in its low, long past. Mom asked all of their names.
            In the evening, nine of the Environmental Education interns that I work with came for dinner, such an incredibly bright,
hard-working crew from all over the U.S. and two from overseas (Slovakia). We ate organically-raised turkey and toasted
Colleen the birthday girl.
            Meanwhile, back in Massachusetts, Paul has been to one peace demonstration in Salem, organized by Avi. He said
they were heckled by young kids in passing cars blasting Poison out their stereos, but that many high school kids joined them.
He thought about taking Brenna (our Scottie) wearing a sign that said, “Barney, talk to your owner” but wasn’t sure what kind of a gathering it would be. One dog did come, but it wasn’t wearing a sign. 
            This week, I am actually dressing up like the Moon to perform at the Night Hike and campfire. This is so not me, so
Miss Moon had better be good. Tuesday is a full moon, so if anyone has an in with the weatherman, post a request for a clear
sky.